dancing a lonely dance

I’m used

It was inevitable. All that she had planned for was crushed by a mere question. How is anything supposed to work under these conditions? Friends gave her advice to give it a go and just ask. She pushed it aside, never ceasing the moment. It was never the right moment. She didn’t think it was smart. Turns out, she was right. Her friends didn’t want to see her hurt and she saw that but she didn’t want to lose what she had. Comfort, happiness, laughter. All gone because of a simple question. Her life shook right then and there. She knew it had all changed. ‘No change,” he said? She felt used at this point. She trusted him when he said he wasn’t using her. All she had to go on was the trust she built with him. She didn’t want to think or believe it was a lie. Let’s hope it’s not a lie. Lies are for the cheap and wicked! Was there betrayal? She didn’t need to put that on her mind also. Maybe things should have been left the way they are like she had wanted. It would’ve not made things complicated and confusing. To be honest, she really did want to bring it up but she knew it would turn sour. She pushed it aside hoping it would never be questioned. She avoided it for as long as she could. She wanted to be his but he didn’t want to be anything to anyone. That tore her apart. Things have definitely changed.Maybe things would be better if they parted ways from here on out. She tried that once but it drove her back into depression. She hated how that felt. It would be better if she was just gone. Things and life would be so much better for not only her and him but for everyone as well. He’s taking the easy way out. No drama, no care. Just a simple discard without a single thought. His life was easy. It was all way too easy. If only she can get into his mind and see how he really feels. Does he really care that he has scarred her for eternity? Does she matter to him? Will things get worse or better? Will she lose him again? She can’t let that happen. Not now or ever again.